Peter Pan probably couldn't even have a neverland like this

April Fool's Day

Saturday 31 March 2007

♥ 22:30

Today is the 1st of April, so it's April Fool's Day, isn't it?

Haha. HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY.

Unfortunately, since i'm banned from msn, I won't be able to play any pranks on anybody. RAWR. so sad. TT^TT. hahaha. oh well. Anyway, it's a long story of how I'm banned from msn. Long long story. And a rather private one too. So, i'm not going to type it here. Instead, i'm going to talk about the 8+ hours I spent outdoors yesterday, the SJAB Flag Day.

First, we met up at bugis. Naturally, we started collecting at bugis. We went in pairs or 3s. I went with Zhi-Yi, and we started collecting all around bugis. Afterwards, we decided to just stay put at one of the bugis mrt entrances. I sounded like a robot.

"Hello/Hi. Would you like to donate/make a donation?"
Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.

Haiyo. My voice went sore after a while. It was already sore before (as in, I got the bacteria kind of sore throat), then it got worse. But that didn't really bother me. Some of them didn't donate to me and zhi-yi, because they said they already donated. We thought it was weird - how come there were people who already donated if they just came out of the MRT? Unless...there was someone downstairs, which was not allowed. We're not allowed to go into shopping centres or anywhere that's indoors, because we don't have the authorization. But we got a tip from a middle-aged lady who told us that she had already donated to someone downstairs. So i got totally pissed and was stomping downstairs, and spotted two guys and two girls. I told the guys that they weren't allowed to ask for donations downstairs. They were like "why?". Then i said that it was because they don't have authorization. They were like "why?" again. Then i was totally pissed. You don't have authorization BECAUSE you don't have authorization. What a bunch of idiots. Oh well. I gave up on them and continued asking for donations upstairs. They were doing illegal things lah! RAWR. But it was none of my business, so I continued asking for donations.

After a while, Zhi-Yi and I began to get bored with bugis. We went over to City Hall, where the people were more generous. Some people at bugis only gave like, 10 cents, some of them, I saw that they had like, $10, $5, $2 notes and a whole lot of coins in their wallets, but they gave me ONE CENT COINS. What the. We don't even use one cent coins anymore! What cheapskates!!

But over at city hall, people were more generous. They gave like $2, $5, and lots of coins. Some people just gave us all the coins they had in their wallets, caucasians (spelling?) mostly, including some malaysian coins. Haha. But I just smiled and said Thank You.

Anyway, over at the city hall entrance, I met some Cat high and ACS I boys. We exchanged coins, as in, he donated to my can, I donated to his can. One ACS I guy looked really cool, with one earring with a cross on his left ear. Haha. I wonder if that's allowed??

Then at around 12, the guys asked zhi-yi and I if we wanted to have lunch with them. Zhi-Yi and I thought it would be a bit weird, but we still went with them. One guy pronounced my name as Lara. RAWR. hahah. oh well. but he got it right in the end. They like, cannot pronounce Zhi-Yi's name. haha. oh well.

Then we went over to burger king. Haiyo. I thought Burger King didn't have any cheeseburgers, but later on, i spotted a cheeseburger! BUT. a HUGE BUT. BUT the cheeseburger turned out to be part of KIDS MEAL WITH TOY. I ordered it anyway. The ACS I guys were like, laughing behind me, because I ordered a cheeseburger, which under the menu, was KIDS MEAL WITH TOY. I told them I didn't care, because I liked cheeseburgers best.

Then after lunch, the ACS I guys went back, and we met up with Jeraldine and Hui Yee. We told them we had lunch with a bunch of ACS I guys. (OMG. I ALMOST TYPED " we had a bunch of acs i guys for lunch." RAWR. ) Then Jeraldine was like "I know". Zhi-Yi and I were like "How'd you know?" Then she said that a bunch of Cat High guys told her while asking for donations. Then jeraldine said that she said "that's so typical of Laura". RAWR. JERALDINE. I"M GOING TO WHACK YOU.

Anyway, i met a couple of cantonese people again, just like last year. Weird. Cantonese people like to go to raffles city. haha. Just like....me! hahaha.

And then the rest of the day was spent at another entrance of the city hall station, outside raffles city. We met a group of another guys, but I don't know what school they were from. They kept flashing the sun at me with the silver part of the tin cans. GRR. so annoying. haha. But still, I donated to them. OH. One funny thing that happened was when they asked me for donations, I was searching for my wallet in my pocket, when i realised my pocket zip was open, and my wallet was missing! Then i ran back to the previous place i asked for donations, screaming, "WHERE'S MY WALLLET?!" Zhi-Yi thought I was mad. Then I looked into my bag, and found my frigging wallet. RAWR. RAWR. RAWR. Zhi-Yi collapsed onto the floor and laughed. I laughed along with her. It was such a nice, relieving, and weird kind of feeling. Haha.

Then when we calmed down, we were like," Oh yeah. We still have to donate to those guys". hahaha. Then the guys left after I donated.

Then two Marist Stella guys showed up. They hor, so what lah. Haha. They were asking for donations INSIDE RAFFLES CITY. That's AGAINST THE LAW!! But they were still bragging about how much money they got from the indoors, and how they didn't have to sweat. WHAT THE.

Anyway, that's about it. At about 3, I was already very tired and cranky, and felt the same as I did when i had PMS. Oh well.

Then I went home at about four.

Then when I came home, after bathing and eating and medication, I went for a 3 hour nap. Then I woke up, ate dinner, had medication, watched some TV and went back to sleep. Hahah. What a day.

I was thinking about him for most of the day yesterday.

Endless Sorrow

Tuesday 27 March 2007

♥ 19:07

tatoeba hitorikiri de
nani mo mienaku natta toshite
tatoeba sore demo mada
mae ni susumou to suru no nara

koko e kite kono te o

kimi ni moshi tsubasa ga
hitotsu shika nakute mo
boku ni moshi tsubasa ga
hitotsu shika nokotte nakute mo

tatoeba shinjiru mono
nani hitotsu naku natta toshite
tatoeba soko ni wa tada
zetsubou dake ga nokotta nara

douka kono inori o

hane no nai tenshi ga
afureteru jidai de

kimi ni moshi tsubasa ga
nokosarete nakute mo
boku ni moshi tsubasa ga
hitotsu demo nokotte iru nara
isshoni... isshoni...

These are the lyrics for Endless Sorrow by Ayumi Hamasaki
She's got an enchanting voice. Too bad I can't post her MV for Endless Sorrow here. There's the copyright thing. Part of Me is also a very nice song.

Feeling...

♥ 00:34

I'm feeling...

Naruto-ish.

Opening song: "Hero's Come Back" by nobodyknows+
Ending song: "流れ星" (Nagareboshi {Shooting Star}) by HOME MADE 家族 (Home Made Kazoku)

I'm feeling.....

Sick.
Shao Ting, I caught your flu. I've got lots of phlegm and I keep coughing. RAWR.
Hahah. But i'm a healthy and strong person, I'll recover FAST.

I'm feeling.....

SJ-ish.

Just had footdrill today. Hooboy. It was okay. I did sweat a lot, but I'm not complaining. Anyway, SGT pointed out my weak points, like the fact that I kept rolling my eyes and looking around. Haha. Gotta watch out.

And I love my squadmates!! All 16 of you!!

SJ Flag Day is on 31st March, this Saturday.=D. Hahaha. I think it might be fun.
JIA YOU, NYSJAB!!

I'm feeling....

Laugh-ish.

I can't stop laughing. Everything was so happy today. Nothing went wrong. I turned out to be *quite* okay in playing ball. Captain's ball is fun! =D.

Oh, I know this is random hor, but,
TONG MENG AND LINGHAN. JIA YOU FOR YOUR SQUASH THINGY HOR.

Anyway, when ytene kept poking her chicken and cucumber, saying they were like stone, well, I couldn't help laughing like mad.

I'm feeling....
PMS-ish.
Only two pieces of chocolate in my WHOLE house. DARN. While I was doing my physics worksheet, I was totally pissed about the whatever forces, velocity, acceleration, Newton's law thing. Then PMS took over my body. I was screaming, yelling, banging the floor, RAWR-ing...and displaying the typical syntoms of PMS.
I am the new PMS queen. RAWR.

I'm feeling.....

Love-ish.

Because...
I'm in love.

Destiny

Sunday 25 March 2007

♥ 21:50

They say only idiots believe in destiny.

I'm an idiot.

Disease

Saturday 24 March 2007

♥ 20:57

Sorry Tane. Your archives code doesn't seem to work on my blog. I'm really sorry.

I know nothing about love. I might be experiencing it now, I might be giving it to others now, I might be receiving it now, but I don't understand it.

Love,

The silent killer of souls.
The reviver of the tortured.

The blood upon her hands.
Of lust, Of pain

Of Love.

I don't understand love. Why do people always connect love with lust? Love kills, yet brings people to life.

I don't understand growing up.

I want to remain naive, simple-minded and carefree.
I want to remain loved, and loving.
I want to remain cute and stupid.
I want to remain as a child.

But I know that will never happen.

Betrayal and pain.

The phone rings again. An angry voice, of hate and frustration, of pain and torture lies 2000 km away. His voice brings tears to her eyes. I thought this kind of thing only happened in movies. Guess my life is a movie. I am the protagonist of the stoy, left to follow what the author has written, without my consent. To abide by the laws of the book, the book of my life, over which i have no control.

They want to send me to the boarding school.
They want me to remain here.
They want me to go to Hong Kong.
They don't want me to remain here.

But,
I just want to remain a child.
When they'd argue, I'd play five stones in a corner.
When they'd shout, I'd think they were laughing.

I want to remain stupid. Unknowing. Naive.

I want to think that people are kind, gentle deep within. I want to think that people wouldn't betray, because they didn't have the heart to do it. I want to remain as a child.

I don't want to grow.

I don't care if I don't turn strong. I don't want to be independant. I want a shoulder to rely on. I don't want to be alone. I don't want to be confused any longer, muddled and mixed up, because of what's going on outside my solitary world.

Help.

Time's scar

♥ 01:23

I think I'm falling for him. Again. I told myself I wouldn't like him anymore. Guess I can't help it.

I don't feel the same as I do for ... *(person X)*, but I feel ... special towards him.

I like his eyes.
I like his height.
I like his hair.
I like him.

It was like this last time, and it's like this again.

Mock Comp

Wednesday 14 March 2007

♥ 23:50

MOCK COMP. STEWARD. CASUALTY. AC1. AC2. NC. NC. NC.

Okay, that's about the BIG PICTURE of what happened today. For some reason, there were NO spectators at ALL. The only ones who came were:
Angie - steward
Sharon, Jeraldine, Jiang Yin - bad crowd (people who were supposed to be sort of passers-by who would irritate the comp team by asking lame questions, doing things they're not supposed to do, etc)
Geng Yu, SGT Steffi, SGT Celia, SGT Xin Yu - Casualties
SGT Valerie, SGT Shin Yi, SGT Eileen, SGT Jia Yi - part of ex-comp team.

I think...there might have been more, maybe just that well, I was, well, a teeny-weeny bit blur.

I was the other steward. Angie took AC2, and I took AC1. I don't know why HCI has two comp teams. Jeraldine says they're just kiasu. *tee-hee* Anyway, being a steward is seriously... WEIRD.
I shall narrate about the 5 hours I spent at Hwa Chong Institution.

The first part is all the usual stuff, report, fix up Uniform, find out where footdrill is, know what a steward is supposed to do, yatta yatta yatta.

Then, Angie and I went to the waiting room while everyone else went to their respective places - footdrill area, Long Case, Short Cases 1 and 2.

After that, the comp teams came in. First it was NC. Then the whole of AC1 and AC2 entered together. I couldn't tell who were who at first. The only thought that occured to me was - damn mosquitoes. Ah yes, the mosquitoes. WHY CANT HCI BE CLEAN AND STAGNANT WATER FREE? SO THAT THERE WON'T BE ANY MOSQUITO-BREEDING. Ahem. My squadmates told me to keep calm. I am calm. calm. calm.

WEOJ EWIORJN(*!)&$#&*(YIKSJ DKLF ^*# *(UISD"
F FSDFSDFSSFSD4654561549SDF 8DSD

I am calm.

Anyway, yeah, after the valuables of the comp teams were surrendered, there was suddenly the 臭男人 ringtone. Hahaha. It was like, Angie and I were discussing certain things, then suddenly

我就是那种你最会讨厌的...

HAHAHAHA.

It turned out to be some AC1 guy's handphone. Couldn't remember which one.

Anyway, the most IMPORTANT PART OF THE mock comp was that...green guy.

In the tune of My barney lies over the Ocean.

The Green Guy lies over at Hwa Chong,
He totally sucks just like crap,
He is the ugliest and fattest,
Most crappiest thing in this world, this world..
Fat old, Green Guy, oh please die die die die die die, die die!
Fat old, Green Guy, oh please die die die die die die.

A lorro original!! =D

hahahha. I won't elaborate on this green guy. Hahaha.
(erm, i'm really sorry if this ever offended anybody!!)

Anyway, I found out that Number 5, I think his name was ?Bowie? (sorry!! I've got STML!) , yeah, he can move his nostrils at will. HAHA. I won't elaborate much. heh. (it was cute, though. XD)

And right, the HCI guys march SO FAST, and take really big steps, I had a really hard time catching up. then when i finally caught up, i accidentally took too big steps, and in the end hit No. 5 in front of me!! T^T. I feel that my footdrill really needs lots of work.

Haha. It's too hard to put all 5 hours of what happened in this post.

But, the main thing is, everyone did their best. NC did their best, and so did AC1 as well as AC2. If only I knew the results......

Love

Monday 12 March 2007

♥ 03:58

I didn't want to open my eyes.
I was afraid that if I did, the tears would leak out like that of blood from an open wound.I wanted my tears hidden, hidden from him. He didn't know how he touched my heart just like that. The love I never knew existed filled the room, flowed in our blood, and froze the time at that moment.He put his hand on my head, and patted it. Then he kissed me goodnight, and walked out.
Then I couldn't hold back any longer. The dam that was my eyelids collapsed. The tears flowed out like a waterfall, fast
as the current of rapids, swift as wind, yet it was water. The tears were so warm, and they flowed down my cold cheeks, melting the ice beneath the skin.
Yes, this is love.
Thanks, Dad.

Camp!!

Tuesday 6 March 2007

♥ 02:42

Tomorrow is officially the beginning of Lifeskills camp!

203 is in charge of telematch, which means we won't be able to play our own games TT^TT. Ahh well, I think the games 207 prepared for us will be quite fun. But i think i'd rather play blood potato, but I think I'd prefer it individual.

Joy! I won't be able to see you on msn for three whole days!! But not to worry! That's what handphones are made for!! (: I'll sms you every night, okay? (:

Oh and, another thing,

OMGWTFBBQ!!

I've been chosen as a steward for the mock comp on the 15th of March!! Along with Angie!! I really hope I won't screw up!! I don't wanna screw up!! I'm going to make sure my Full-U is in PERFECT condition, my belt buckle doesn't break, and MY BOOTS ARE SHINY ENOUGH!!

I don't know why, no matter how long I polish my boots, they JUST DONT SHINE!! ARGHHH! I polished ONE boot for ONE hour, and it's not as shiny as the OTHER boot that I polished for 20 minutes!! OMG!! Why on EARTH did I have to get such low quality boots?

Oh, and Hana Kimi just ended. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. The ending was soooooooo random and abrupt and DISAPPOINTING! Why do ALL shows have to end this way? Can't they have a proper ending, that actually ENDS the story? Instead of leaving it hanging there, like it's ready for a season 2, but in the end, the season 2 is so so so much worse than season 1?! Can't they just end with like, 50 episodes?! GRRRR.

Hahahhaaha. Anyway, gotta go to sleep earlier today. Camp tomorrow.

P.S. Jiro is so friggin' HOT. HOT HOT HOT SIZZLING HOT! I WANT A BOYFRIEND JUST LIKE JIRO WANG. I WANT JIRO WANG.

JIRO!!<33333333333

Monday 5 March 2007

♥ 03:18

There is a castle on a cloud
I want to go there in my sleep
Aren't any floors for me to sweep
Not in my castle on a cloud

There is a room that's full of toys
There are a hundred boys and girls
Nobody shouts or talks too loud
Not in my castle on a cloud

There is a lady all in white
holds me and sings a lullaby
nice to see, soft to touch
she says, " Cosette, I love you very much"

I know a place where no one's lost
I know a place where no one cries
Crying at all is not allowed,
Not in my castle on a cloud.

This is the song "Castle on a Cloud" featured in Les Miserables.
I love the third stanza the most. This song is so lovely, and peaceful, and the tune is just so, perfect, mesmerizing.

And one more thing, I'm going to name my daughter Cosette. If I get a son, he'd be Cose. Ain't that a nice name? If i get twins well, wouldn't that sound nice? Hahaha.

I want to live in a castle on a cloud too.

Thursday 1 March 2007

♥ 03:58

Haha. It seems that I'm posting almost every day!! HAHA. Must really have a lot of free time. But I definitely know that I won't be posting tomorrow. CCA mah. Actually, I had CCA today. More accurately, I was the NYSJAB Comp Team's casualty. The ONLY ONE for today.

Actually, I'm quite disappointed in this particular person. Okay, so she didn't know about my phobia, but that's not the case. I told her clearly that I couldn't do it alone. I trusted her, but she let me down.

But, it doesn't matter. It's because of this incident, that I got through my phobia. So, THANK YOU PERSON 某某. HAHAAHAH.

Yeah, there's a lot more i'd like to post about Comp Team training, like about the fact that NCOs kept talking about Wuzun (squeal!) and Jiro (SQUEAL!!). HAHA. Then, I found out, through SGT charlene's interrogation (haha. that sounds weird.) that Huiming likes Quan, Gwen likes Xiu Yi while Yiling has no preferences. HAHA. If she had asked me, I would have probably said "Mei Tian". HAHA. I mean, in the manga, mei tian is HOT. In the movie, well, he's just hilarious. HAHA.

And the conditions given during comp team were really funny, and the conversations between SGT Valerie, SGT Eileen and SGT Shinyi were very funny, especially when they were acting as the home nursing casualty's relative. HAHA. SGT Charlene left some time in the middle of the training, so she wasn't a "relative" of mine.

Okay. I am SO lame. This is something that happens during EVERY Comp team training, so...it's nothing special, to casualties.

And uh,
TOMORROW FULL-U. SHALL POLISH BOOTS. =D